long, angry blog

so, this past week has made me feel kind of sad and angry at the same time.
pheba and i told each other all last year, that since we were both going to Garland together in IB, we would be friends. and stick together. and we have, and i consider her a best friend now.

but there's this one girl, chloe. who's okay, and we're friends and everything.
but her and pheba are ALWAYS together. and they always make stupid and mean jokes about me when they're together. i really don't get it? like, okay, we can joke around, and i can take a joke, but when you just keep going like it's no big deal, it does actually hurt my feelings.

another thing, is that pheba ditches me for chloe all the time. for example, yesterday at lunch, i was like, "hey, pheba, wanna come with me to the commons?" and she said, "no, i just want to stay here."
i was like, okay whatever. then chloe asked her the same thing a couple minutes later, and she just got up and left.
what the fuck. the same thing happened on the bus to a game the other day. i was sitting with pheba and we were talking. then chloe got on and she's like "NO! pheba's sitting with ME." and she like, dragged pheba away. and pheba didn't object. i swear, she's like chloe's bitch.
then whenever chloe's not around, pheba tries being all best-friendy with me.
make up your mind. don't be a dick like that.

don't get me wrong. i'm not trying to be all creepy and possessive, i don't care if we're not best friends. but we've known each other for two, three years now. but i don't want to just be "aqqauintances" with her, not after we've been good friends for this long. but as it's looking now, i just don't want to hang out with her that much anymore.
especially if it means hanging out with chloe all the time, too.
i don't really have a huge problem with chloe, but she's too LOUD. and she makes pheba loud, which is completely out of character.
and, chloe's sort of a slut. she tries to flirt with my brother's best friend, who is a fucking senior. and she has a boyfriend. plus, she always has to have to attention on her. after class one day, we were walking, and she stopped to talk to this guy. after he left, she was like, "so, what do you think of ___?" and i'm like, "yeah, he's pretty cute." then she says, "oh yeah, he likes me, hahaa."
did you just set yourself up for that one? just to get some attention? or show that guys are always all over you or some shit?

and one more thing. chloes going out with this guy nick, who went to jackson. she pretty much broke up nick and his previous girlfriend iris, who's super cool and a good friend. and one day, we were sitting in the bleachers after athletics, and iris walked past. it was right after iris and nick had broken up, and chloe and nick were talking. as iris passes us, chloe says "HA. i look waaaayy better than iris does..."
i just stared at her. thats such a bitchy thing to say. you already broke up her and her boyfriend. god damn.

is it obvious i'm angry? ha. i just wish i be around my best friends.