BAFFL.

I freaking love...

Mary Kim, Christian Luu and Calvin Luu.

Sometimes I feel like they're all I need!

Why

Why the fuck do I even bother sometimes?...

Why the fuck do you get all the fun? I exist too.
I do so much shit for you but you couldn't just do me a solid this ONE time, and let me chill out?
Thanks. You're just what I need.

I Refuse

I refuse to lower my expectations and standards.
I'm not like all of you.

So, today was boring.
Orchestra was fine, we had a chair test, but he didn't get to me.
I got my medal, which I'm very proud of.
Geometry was, of course a pain in the ass.
We had a quiz, and it was hard as fuck. Thankfully, I'm making an 81 which gives me some fall room.
However, I still refuse to fail. So I better get better.

Student Leadership wasn't as fun as normal.
I think I was just sleepy.
I made a 100 on my Geography quiz, then slept.

I really like getting home so early. It adds serious productivity to my day.

Everything

So I basically miss Linh lots and lots.
I miss other people but for some reason I miss her the most.
At school I often feel out of place and awkward with everyone and their stupid little cliques.
It also feels like all the IB kids that went to Austin look down on me. They always condescend, and act like they're way better than me because they can get a better math grade.
It shouldn't get to me, but it does.
Like who are you to judge me? Because you seem to think you're smarter than me?
Because you're rich and I'm not?
Whatever, I don't mind being the little misfit type that I am. Even with my friends, I just feel kind of lonely at times.

Disappointment.

As much as it pains me to say, we're not undefeated in district anymore.
Fuck fuck fuck.
:/

It's okay, though, this is still our district.
Damn, I love basketball.

Change

This year is going to be different.
I'm going to try harder.
I'm going to be smarter.
I'm going to STOP comparing myself to others.
I'm going to be HAPPY.

Perhaps

I feel like I just feel the need to feel loved.
Like, legitimately loved.
I always feel like I'm the cause of problems.
Like my mother's depression.
My brother's anger.
I don't know what I can do about it.
It's lame.
LAME!